Inspiration

I'm not big bone-ded.  I'm fat.  Thinking that you're just a big person implies that you can't lose the weight, that skinny is out of reach.  Sometimes I catch myself in this mindset.  This happens especially when people tell me that I've lost so much weight, why am I still dieting?  Hello...I'm still fat.  

So, here's my inspiration.  Everyone can be skinny if they want it bad enough.

(ok she's too skinny.  but still)

Fatty fatty fat fat fat

Well, I'm not doing so hot and the timeline just got shorter.

First, after a week of good effort I hadn't lost any weight.  I know that plateaus happen (I've experienced them), but they still suck.  I weighed in at a flat 183.6 on Friday morning.

And then I took off for Santa Barbara and attempted to pickle myself in tequilla for two days.  Oops.  So much for sticking to my weight watchers allowance.  Don't know how much I weigh now (no scale in the hotel, shucks) but I bet it aint pretty.

But OK, I still have two and a half months to lose the weight, right?  Wrong again.  Due to my stupid self-inflicted schedule, I have to do the dress fitting on August 11th -- more than a month before the wedding.  The lady at the shop says I'll need to be very close to my day-of weight by then for them to properly do the alterations.

Eff.

The time pressure may be a good thing, I suppose.  I can't think of anything else that would convince me to go out running in this heat.  Approximate temp in KC right now is 475 degrees.

What I really need is a tapeworm -- anyone know where I can get one?

I am SOOOO tired of being fat.