Time is flying (and so am I)

Current Weight: 191

Mood: Anxious

Not too much to report I’m afraid.  I started traveling for work two weeks ago and have found it very difficult to eat well and exercise (so far my team seems so subside on pizza and bbq).  That said, I’ve kept my weight about steady, which is kind of impressive (considering).

With that miniscule back-pat out of the way, however, we can turn to the more relevant topic of conversations – HOW-THE-HELL-AM-I-GOING-TO-LOSE-30-POUNDS-IN-THE-NEXT-THREE-AND-A-HALF-MONTHS?!?!?!

The last two weeks just blew by.  Based on my experience with this project to-date, I can expect to spend the next 6-8 weeks with approximately the following routine:

-          Leave LA Sunday afternoon, arrive Kansas City close to midnight.  Get to hotel between 12-1

-          Work M-Th 8am-7pm, followed by team dinner  (unless I ditch to go run)

-          Fly home Thurs night, arrive LA around midnight

-          Work in LA on Friday

-          Sleep Saturday

-          Repeat

I’ll be eating all meals out Monday through Thursday, and probably most of the weekend unless I can find time to squeeze in meal planning and grocery shopping sometime over the weekend.  This definitely kicks the challenge up a notch.  I’m starting to feel a bit frightened about it – it’s a lot of weight and it will be tough to just sustain weight under my current schedule.  I’ll be happy if I can lose even just 20 pounds, but that is still a lot of work ahead.  The status quo is simply not acceptable – I still have so much arm fat!

What I need is a plan (a good one).  Its going to need to start with finding the inner strength to get up in the morning and exercise before work.  After work the whole team goes out to dinner every night, and it wouldn’t be appropriate for me to skip out on every dinner.  The only way to get regular exercise in will be to overcome the evil morning demon that traps me under the soft covers every morning.  This significantly easier said than done.  My morning demon is very persistent.

Food will be another hurdle.  Like it or not, group meals are a hugely important part a career in consulting.  I can’t just hermit up and eat smart ones alone in my hotel room.  I’ve been trying to order well, but even so you never quite know what you’re getting.  I will have to just trust in my weight watchers entry estimates and log EVERYTHING – no more skipping logging on weekends.  This is the home stretch baby.

I find myself thinking about what Eric says to me when I’m being difficult or unreasonable (me? never).  He’ll cock his head to the side, smile at me, and say, ‘so what you’re saying is that you want your way and you want it now?.’

That is how I feel.  I want my way: I want to lose every one of those thirty pounds and have a body that I’m proud of on my wedding day.  I also want to ‘knock it out of the park’ with the new job – put in the most hours, get the most done, put in the time at team events.  I also want to enjoy the millions of events planned this summer – weddings, bachelorette parties, showers, birthdays, etc – which will be havens for ravenous behavior.  I want all of that – and I want it now.  Sometimes it just sucks not being able to have it all.

Whew, enough whinning.  These are all first-world problems.  At the end of the day I am a healthy young woman with a great job whose parents are throwing her a big, beautiful wedding.  Now if I can only be a skinny, healthy young woman….